Saturday, June 22, 2002
Aaaahhhhh.... Iīve entered a new phase of life, discovered a new side of myself, am seeing the world in a whole new way. Just when you think the bitch Life is throwing the stinkiest shit at you, you find that that shit is actually manure to help you grow. Hmm, that sounds funny.... hahahaha. Whatever man!Been partying like wuh. Wed. Thurs. Fri. Start around 12, 1am. Get home at around 8am. Sleep till afternoon, wake up and do it all again. What a life. Had Spaniards doing other funny stuff for us - dudes in the club on wednesday night took us to a 7-11 (we were sooo hungry) and turns out the camera in there was broken as the guard stupidly enough told us. So these dudes were like, shoot, what yall want? And started stuffing their pockets with juice and cookies and ting. Hahahaha! They didnīt steal for me (Iīm a good girl ;) but they did for my friend Jasmine, who was completely oblivious as to why they were taking away her juice. I was crackin up.
We had fun man. Jaz leaves tomorrow, but girl it was nice knowing you!
Itīs sad how many friends Iīve made, and that Iīll probably never see again.
Such is Life.
God knows what heīs doing. Trust God and no man, and youīll be ALRIGHT.
*The Princess has an important phone call to make*
posted by Tanisha Cross at 8:20 PM Comments []
Wednesday, June 19, 2002
Grr... just typed a blog and the freaking thing is lost! Hating internet cafes at the mo....ANYWAYZ, Salamanca was da bomb. Got sung to by random guys outside clubs, and rounds of applause from dudes on the street. Just what a girl needs: girlie get-away, nuff sex talk, good food, and dudes going on theire knees on the street for you. Heehee! Was way cool.
13 days till Iīm in London, leaving my home in Madrid for good. Canīt believe it man! Itīs almost over... *sigh* Gonna miss it.
*The Princess is off in search of comida*
posted by Tanisha Cross at 3:58 PM Comments []
Friday, June 14, 2002
Yay! Going to Salamanca tomorrow! Yay! My friend from my uni, University of Kent at Canterbury (yah yah, Chaucerīs place) is here and stayin in Salam. with other friends, an Iīm goin tomorrow to party hardy! Yay!Meanwhile, just wanna let yall know that I make no apologies for the stuff I write here - this is me, this is my life, this is what I feel. Iīve had some come and ask me questions (like, everyone emails me or speaks to me about my page, but no one comments on it! Safe, hear?) bout stuff, but donīt worry, Iīm just venting. Love, love, love!
*The Princess must go pack!*
Besos y mucho amor.
posted by Tanisha Cross at 2:35 PM Comments []
Tuesday, June 11, 2002
CANCER:>>Tuesday, June 11
And speaking of your ruler, the Moon, it moves into your sign this
afternoon, closing the books on the past month and initiating a
brand-new cycle. Since so much was activated and dislodged in the
previous 28 days, you will undoubtedly welcome this opportunity to sort
through it all and see how you feel.
Today's star rating: **
I can feel it already. Yall must think Iīm obssessed with my horoscope, but itīs just that this one is so always on point!
I do feel much better. I took a long hot bubble bath last night, had a workout this morning, and Iīve been studying and listening to really good music all day. Yes, the studying has actually been fun. Iīm working on the Black Women paper (due tomorrow) and Iīve been finding out some extremely interesting stuff.
Such as:
- In the antebellum American South, white men didnot have to look at pornographic pictures because they could become voyeurs of Black women on the auction block
- The Hottentot Venus, Sarah Bartmann, was an African woman (with that name?!) who was often exhibited at fashionable parties in 19th century Paris wearing little clothing. After her death in 1815, she was dissected and her genitalia and buttocks remain on display in paris, not to show her genitalia per se but rather to show her anomaly.
- At the time Europeans thought that Africans had deviant sexual practices and searched for physiological differences, such as enlarged penises and malformed female genitalia. Sarah Bartmannīs exhibition represented these sexist and racist beliefs.
Fairly deep, huh? The things people used to do. The things people do now. You just never know what to expect, are always surprised and you learn something new every single day, whether itīs knowledge you want or not.
Go out and read! Itīs the key to knowledge, wisdom and the path into the heads of mad people.... hahaha
*The Princess must terminate her examination on Black feminism*
posted by Tanisha Cross at 5:18 PM Comments []
Monday, June 10, 2002
Just lifted my arms and my shoulders are completely cramped. Need a massage pronto...Shit that hurts.... Are you OK when you got pains all down your back and arms?? Iīll just go sleep it off....
posted by Tanisha Cross at 9:21 PM Comments []
3rd time online. Been a strange day man. And Iīm having a little trouble dealing with some stuff. When it rains it pours.
Just came from dancing and walked almost all of Gran V?a. Itīs a warm night, and the street is full of people at 11pm! Well in Spain everything starts and goes on waaaaay late. Saw gay couples kissing, prostitues getting paid, sex shops, and in the middle of it all tourist families walking with little itty bitty kids. It is a beautiful city tho. Buildings from way back when. (Donīt ask, Iīm not good with dates) All intricate an stuff. OK so Iīm not good with arquitecture either....
Dammit there are things Iīm good at....
Yo no sé.
The Princess is dazed and confused.
posted by Tanisha Cross at 9:17 PM Comments []
Oh my mama told me
Cuz she said she learned the hard way
Say she wanna spare the children
She say donīt ever give yuor soul away
īCause all that you have is your soul
Donīt be tempted by the shiny apple
Donīt you eat of the bitter fruit
Hunger only for a taste of justice
Hunger only for a world of truth
īCause all that you have is your soul
- Tracy Chapman
posted by Tanisha Cross at 5:06 PM Comments []
I am so very confused. I hate it when people donīt tell you whatīs going on. And I hate the fact that I care so damned much! I canīt let go... Let it go dammit! Grrr
And in other news....
I have an assignment due in soon, I think Iīll do it on The Black Woman. Itīs for my Anthropolgy of Gender class. A class which rocks by the way. So Iīm back in the books for the last time in this country.... Unless Iīve pathetically failed all my other assignments, in which case Iīll just cry. Maybe I should just cry anyway, itīs really good for the soul. Release tension an stuff. After you do that things always seem much clearer.
What am I doing? Am I doing what I want to be doing?
No one should ever let love come between them and their goals. Love will always be there if it is really love. Right?
The Princess feels confused and lovesick. She must put on her armour and GET ON WITH IT.
Life goes on.
hmmm... fairly random blog... hope i dont confuse ppl... :) just the way my head works i spose...
posted by Tanisha Cross at 10:59 AM Comments []
Sunday, June 09, 2002
It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare.It is because we do not dare that things are difficult.
posted by Tanisha Cross at 7:10 PM Comments []
shit happens, to everyone, no exceptions. its thrown but that bitch Reality, remember her, the bich with thorns. sometimes its her sister Life who has 3 horns, so that once she got you cornered ur done for. thats my mission. the NubianWarriorPrincess must fight to get Reality and Life on her side. as must everyone else really.... they tough tho... i keep gettin gored. over and over and over..... i will survive dammit. the warrior will fight till the end. bwahahahaha!!
my ma left yesterday. i was much sadder about it than i thought id be. i guess im at a very lonely stage in my life. i love being alone, i can be a real loner at times, BUT theres alone, and theres lonely. lonely sux.
it was cool having her here. saw a flamenco show, went out to dinners, shopping (i now have an extremely well stocked fridge!! yay! real food man!)
i wanna go home. to barbados. even tho technically jamaica is my birth home, bim has become my home home. i cant believe i said that. jamaicans tend to be so nationalistic. im always an exception to the rule anyway, so whatever. my friends, the ones ive known for the longest time out of all my friends, except for Leslie (girl, u know we goes back), my family lives in bim now, i grew up there in all ways. i mean, ill forever say im jamaican, but barbados is home. *sigh*
Princess must go and continue her war against Reality, Life and the Shit they throw.
Peace and Love.
posted by Tanisha Cross at 7:00 PM Comments []
Friday, June 07, 2002
One who cannot get angry is foolish.One is wise who will not.
I been real wise lately....
Patience is wearing thin....
posted by Tanisha Cross at 9:39 AM Comments []
Wednesday, June 05, 2002
kravitz aftermath.i miss him already... hahaha, ok i done, i wont carry on about how great he is. besides, hes a kinda great thats sexy and wonderful, but not actually something i want. ifuknowhatimean. hes like way up there outta my league, beyond just another singer. human, yeah maybe, but not average. i would much prefer my man. thanx lenny, but u dont cut it.
meanwhile. my throat an eyes burn, cuz we just came from a class dinner, and u know how it goes when ur a smoker. ya must hol a smoke after u eat. so we were inundated in fumes. in an air-conditioned room. lovely. i smell like an ashtray.
my maīs here visiting. it was so nice seeing her again, much as i know its definately time for me to live on my own. which is what im doing, but i dont think me moving back in would be a good idea. at all. meanwhile, she brought me food, we went shopping (yes! money thats not outta my pocket!), ironed my jacket (ok, so there are some housewife things i just dont have the patience for, and WHAT?) etc etc. its so nice having a ma around. i should get sick, just so she can fuss over me and ting. thats how sad i am! o dear me.
im blabbing. trying to avoid having to finish an assignment. dont wanna do it! my brain doesnt wanna think too hard. i need sleep and real food and bim sun and dub on the RADIO an other things.... ahem....
im going now
*the princess goes and looks for her teddy*
posted by Tanisha Cross at 10:29 PM Comments []
Monday, June 03, 2002
Lenny Kravitz World Tour 2002Palacio Vistalegre Madrid
o
my
God.
Lenny was fantastic. Amazing.
He comes onstage and he bows to me (u know, the way to greet a princess...) and says īi wanna be ur man. id do anything....ī and i said, ok, but onlu for tonite, hear? cuz my boo ryan would not be impressed....
he said hed do anything. he said all of my life, been waiting for you. i wonder of ill ever see u againī and i said īcall meī. hehehehe.
the things he did do that guitar with his fingers.... hes such an amazing performer. the vibe in the place was like woah. the smoke was like woah. twas an enclosed stadium like place with poor ventilation and several thousand ppl. kinda stuffy. and the drugs... o my. i was offered īmarihuanaī but erm... that wasnt weed at all. that was laced with some shit. this gay dude behind us (there were three) was so tryin to get us to smoke. shame, he was so nice at first. i was on a natural high baby. and when i came down i felt sweet an satisfied. he was like im gaym, but u like me. hahahaha. idiot. he was cute kadere. shame he was so f***ed off his face with whatever he was smoking.
yeah so lenny was amazing. hes so sexy. the way he moved, commanded the stage, the audience (who ADORED him)... he had a saxophonist on who was da bomb, an he gave him centre stage a few times (sexy and sweet?? stop it!) and his drummer was the MOST AMAZING WOMAN! she performed in a bra top, that was the colour of her skin so she looked topless, an briefs an iu understand why. the place was hot to start (yes yes, i was dressed to kill, and what of it? heehee) and she went NUTS on the drums. she was sooooooo fantasctically amazing. she coulda had her own show.
o yeah, macy gray performed too. completely high - performed this song called īsexual revolutionī in which she said hey, im singin a song about sex, sexuality, sexy, sensual.... i wanna see u take ur clothes off.... sooooooooooooo ppl in the crowd started removing various articles of clothing and her guitarist stayed the rest of the set with his pants round his ankles. and macy lay on her back, knees up and proceeded to girate and grind on her mic stand. it was so funny. poor shocked, recently out of the Francoist regime, omygogshessexingonstage spaniards. hahaha
but she couldnt give us what lenny did. he was in short da bomb.
just wish i coulda shared that experience with a certain significant other. *sigh*
no pasa nada (its all good in spanish)
the princess has spoken.
posted by Tanisha Cross at 12:44 PM Comments []
Saturday, June 01, 2002
The Princess has an important message:My people, if you want something real bad GO GET IT! Cause sometimes that opportunity comes only once, and you donīt really regret it that much until the moment you realise it WILL NEVER COME AGAIN. Then youīll just spend the rest of your life kicking yourself. And that hurts.
The Princess has spoken.
posted by Tanisha Cross at 3:41 PM Comments []
