Wednesday, October 01, 2003

Do you know the feeling of being so terrified to do something you want to do so bad you don't know if you can go through with it? You prefer security over ifs and maybes. There are so many things that could go wrong you don't know if it wil be worth it.

So what do you do? Dive right in I suppose. You only live once. You may never get another chance like this. Add all other cliches here. Here's to not drowning.

C.O.T
I forgot how nice it can be to be with someone on a casual level. You can chill, have fun, do stuff *hehehe* and then just be like, yeah catch you later. You know they care about you, but that you won't lose yourself in them. You know you can be brutally honest with them, even when it comes to talking about other people you may be dating/seeing at the same time, and it will be all good. And when I leave for New York, I won't cry my eyes out over how much I'll miss him. I feel so liberated.

Welcome to the world of flamming.


posted by Tanisha Cross at 6:08 PM Comments []

Tuesday, September 30, 2003

To be or not to be?

I made it into a dance school in New Jersey. Scholarship, professional division, possible invitation into a dance company. It's like my ultimate dream come true. Problem is, I can't get a ticket out of here - when the parents control the funds, it's hard to just pick up and leave. I know we can't really afford it. And I know if I go, I'll have to work my ass off.

Seems almost like a waste of a degree doesn't it? I just want to do this while I'm still young and able to move somewhat. Not to mention this huge opportunity that has presented itself to my face. I can't let this go without a fight. The amount of blood (my right leg is still injured from the audition last week) sweat and tears (I almost had a complete breakdown in NJ) that has gone into this, I can't let it be a waste.

So here's wishing me a trip to the US of A. As soon as possible, seeing as classes start on Monday.

Does this mean I should still apply for jobs? I had all these applications waiting to be sent out. Maybe I'll wait. I want to be sure of whether I'm going or not before I make moves in that direction.

*The Princess goes and prays like she has never prayed before*

posted by Tanisha Cross at 8:17 PM Comments []